My Next Year

On Monday, September 22nd, I woke up around 6:30am, washed off my body (leaving my hair dry) and put on my black and neon yellow nike shorts and my neon yellow tank. I headed over to my sister's house to do the P90X Fit Test. I had been doing the P90X workouts on some of my non-running days but my sister wanted her DVDs back so it was time I bought my own. When it arrived in the mail with the little booklet, I decided it would be worth a read. I never looked into the P90X program for myself because I always thought it was too extreme for me and that because I am obese, it wouldn't be a good fit for me. It seemed like a program for the fit who just needed to take it to the next level and become ripped.
So, I looked at the booklet and it told me to watch the "Bring It" video on their beachbody.com site. I couldn't find it right away so I started clicking on "Success Stories" -specifically the ones that had "before" pictures of women who looked closer to how I look now. I didn't think I would find any but I did. I started getting really excited for these women and I started think, maybe I really can become sculpted in 90 days. My heart started pumping and I decided to finish reading the booklet, read the nutrition plan and go from there. I found the DVD in my set for the "How to Bring It" video and watched it. Before I knew it, I started crying because for the first time, in years, I felt like maybe I really can become lean and have a sculpted body! I still have the pang in the back of my mind that tells me I have always failed at doing this. But, I'm fighting it! I have never given P90X a chance before. Maybe, I ought to!
I did the Fit test the morning of my birthday on Monday. I was feeling torn between doing the Lean workout program or the Classic. I told myself I can do a week of the Lean and kind of get myself ready for the full program. I am going to start the Classic on Monday and include the nutrition goals of a high protein/low carb/low fat diet for this first week. After which, I think I'll enter Phase II of the nutrition plan and eat a more balanced diet. I'll continue journalling my diet on MyFitnessPal.
I am nervous that I'll feel weak without the carbs and fat I'm used to allowing myself to have. To relieve myself of the anxiety, I will allow myself one free meal a week (Friday night).
I am still a little nervous about the intense workouts but after completing this week of the Lean plan, I am feeling pumped and ready. I am already feeling the shift in energy. And, I swear my nike shorts fit me better today than they did on Monday!
This is going to be the best next year for my body! I am going to push hard for the next 90 days and give this P90X thing a shot! If I have the energy and time, I'll still fit in a few runs throughout the week or maybe just on Saturdays. But, I'm going to give the P90X a shot at changing my chubby body into a lean, strong body.