Today, I struggled to wake up and get going. I really didn't want to go to church and I felt anxious and uncomfortable. Maybe it was because I knew I had just eaten like a food addict all this past week (my birthday week), or maybe it was because I knew I had a ton of laundry, grocery shopping, homework, and schoolwork to do. I also wanted to fix Megan's car for her so she could get to work this evening. And, I wanted to make sure my car was emptied out (it was clear full of boxes to take to my classroom) in case she needed to use it.
I decided to take advantage of this last day of "freedom" and eat my Oregano's leftovers. As I was doing so, a little voice started telling me that this is my life and has been for a very long time. What makes me think I can change that now? Just because I wrote a blog post and shared it with some people; All the sudden, I'm supposed to have the energy to want to cook healthy meals and completely change who I am?
I felt I should get on the computer and see if the Gen Women's session was uploaded yet on lds.org so I could tell Mom where to go to listen to it. But, I felt like I should make a point to listen to it as well. It had some encouraging stories of women who didn't have the life that they wanted but as they had faith in the Lord and as they chose to fill their hearts with love, they were able to be happy. There were messages of having charity and humility and faith in Him. It was good for me to hear and I think it helped to remind me of the joy I feel when I am faithfully seeking His will and having charity for others.
I felt a surge of motivation to start organizing my life again. I put some laundry away and started a new load. I did the dishes, cleaned up some left over popped balloon pieces from my party yesterday, and then hit the road to take care of those boxes. Hearing the message helped me feel not so overwhelmed, but empowered to take care of these smaller things.
I got home just barely in time to take a 5 min shower and take Megan to church. We walked in just in the time for announcements and we were able to be there for the sacrament. The speakers were, Clint (a recently returned missionary), Katie (a convert of 1 year) and Brandon (another convert). I remember the talk that Clint gave of the atonement. Within it, he quoted an apostle stating the importance of not allowing Satan to make you look back and focus on who you once were. Or, to not look too far forward, but to be in the present. Let the Savior work with you. I felt that this was a message for me not to focus on how many times I've failed, but to move one step at a time into the right direction. One step, one day at a time. And, when I mess up, just put it behind me and keep moving forward.
In Sunday school Jacob Meyer gave a lesson and we spoke of reconciliation to God. It made me also think of this personal struggle I have. Megan made a comment about how Judas was consumed with his guilt in a way that kept him from progressing and learning. (He quit and gave up). However, Peter felt sorrow but wanted to do what he could to make it right so he chose to do better, and rather than ending his life he lived a life of love and ministry.
Sis. Brown (the bishop's wife) gave a lesson in Relief Society from Elder M. Russell Ballard's April 2015 General Priesthood session talk. She gave us these little handouts with questions on it to ask ourselves.
1. Do you search the scriptures regularly?
2. Do you kneel in prayer to talk with your Heavenly Father each morning and each night?
3. Do you fast and donate a fast offering each month -even if you are a poor, struggling student who can't afford to donate much?
4. Do you think deeply about the Savior and His atoning sacrifice for you when you are asked to prepare, bless, pass, or partake of the sacrament?
5. Do you attend your meetings and strive to keep the Sabbath day holy?
6. Are you honest at home, school, church, and work?
7. Are you mentally and spiritually clean? Do you avoid viewing pornography or looking at websites, magazines, movies, or apps, including Tinder and Snapchat photos, that would embarrass you if your parents, Church leaders, or the Savior Himself saw you?
8. Are you careful with your time -avoiding inappropriate technology and social media, including video games, which can dull your spiritual sensitivity?
9. Is there anything in your life you need to change and fix, beginning tonight?
...Each one of these questions made me realize I could do a little bit better to keep myself spiritually clean. Earlier today, I recalled the time I shared with Bishop that my spiritual and physical wellbeing usually go hand in hand. If I am doing well spiritually, I tend to do better at taking care of myself physically, and vice versa. This was a manifestation of how much I've been attacked spiritually lately.
I was also thinking about how grateful I am that I pushed myself to go to church today and open up my heart to these lessons. All of this is helping me realize the truthfulness of the statement, "The Sabbath Day was made for man (and woman) and not (wo)man for the Sabbath." The lessons taught were just what I needed to hear to help me move forward.
I'm on Level "0" but I am able to move up!
Sunday, September 27, 2015
Saturday, September 26, 2015
My 30th Year Plan
Well, another year has come and gone and I still haven't accomplished attaining that "healthy weight" with a perfect bod…alas, I'll have to come up with a better plan, or give up altogether!
Giving Up:
Giving up is when you've stopped trying, accept failure, and then find yourself deciding to work on something else. This is what my a small percentage of my band students do. They pick an instrument, they are so excited and then after about a week or so, they start to question their ability. I slow down the pace for the class and they begin to feel empowered again. I push them to work harder after a couple of weeks and some of them start to freak out. Some will say they want to switch instruments because they think they didn't choose the right one and others will just quit. It always breaks my heart when they use the Q word and quit before they've even had a chance to experience their very first concert. I think, if they just would have stuck it out long enough to feel the reward of the small adrenaline rush before they start their four pieces they play for the audience and the rush of accomplishment and pride that comes after. If only!
Giving up is what I guess I have done this past year. I started P90X and then quit after day 60 because I felt like I wasn't getting the visual results I wanted. I quit trying to eat healthy because this little voice inside me told me it won't make that big of a difference and since I can't control some of the things that I know will make me happy (like finding the man of my dreams who will love me all the days) then the least I can do is grab myself a salted caramel Ben & Jerry's because I know that it gives me that temporary boost I can count on. Depression can be a real rational thinking process killer...
Giving up looks like this: I'm a 30 year old, 65in tall woman and weigh over 200lbs even though I ran a marathon just last week! Looks like I got the exercise part figured out (I do love that adrenaline rush before a race and at the finish line), but I gave up on the food stuff.
So how about I make a better plan…
Better Plan:
Now, this one is tough because I feel like I've tried so many things already! Tons, really. I truly believe that everyone is going to have something inside of them that works better for them then someone else. It really is different for everyone. I'm still finding my something. I'm going to try to use plans in the past that have worked for me, but come up with a plan that will hopefully help me stay focused on my goal and not feeling like I'm done before I'm done.
I've been doing lots of reading and studying for as long as I can remember learning how to read books that didn't have pictures in them. In my first read, I learned the importance of complex carbs, avoiding sugar, and avoiding starvation. In another, I learned the importance of lean protein and muscle growth. Later, I discovered the value of balancing carbs and protein together in portioned meals spread throughout. I later learned some contradicting ideas. Tried those ideas out and still don't buy into them so much. Intermittent fasting might be for some, but doesn't work well as a sustainable plan for me. I later learned the value of calorie counting. I lost the most when I implemented MyFitnessPal! And, of course, there is the Paleo plan. This seemed like a terrible idea when I first heard about it. But, I learned while reading "It Starts With Food"that paleo is actually pretty plant based. In fact, if I wanted to go paleo and eat meat sparingly, I could easily do that because there are plenty of plants that have protein and healthy fats that will help sustain me.
I've learned, over the years a little more about myself every time I've taken out these plans for a spin. It's like dating different men. You learn about them, but more importantly, you discover more about yourself what you are really looking for.
I don't know everything but I know I am looking for a plan that empowers me. I am looking for a diet that will not starve me, will feed all the inter working parts of my body but will also feed my soul. Whole30 was against "super stimulating foods" but the problem is, I'm already a food addict so if I don't get my replacement kicks somewhere, I might fall back on my salted caramel B&J's for comfort again. So, yes, its got to be tasty, wholesome, and its got to make me feel satisfied.
Ahh satisfaction…Satisfaction is what I really want. I want to be satisfied with my whole body, mind, and spirit working together as a balanced team.
So, here's the next plan. I am going to do Paleo eating for this 30th year of my life. Am I allowed to go off of it? Yes, but only for special events or days. Going on a cruise would be an example of that. Its a Friday night and my friends want to go out, is not one of those. Birthdays/weddings of very close friends or family, Holidays (not the whole month, just the week of), and Cultural Food night. I was thinking to allow myself one meal or treat per week to help me not feel stressed or restricted. What do you think? Is that too lenient?
Here is my weight goal. I want to weigh 145lbs by my birthday next year. Sooner would be better. So, I was thinking if I stay focused on the weight losing part (which has its own rewards over food) then I may not even want to go off the plan anyway.
Now, I have tried listing all of the reasons to lose weight and reaffirm to myself all of these wonderful things that will come if I accomplish these goals, but that just hasn't worked efficiently. I think part of it is my confidence gets swallowed up when I see that I'm not anywhere close to reaching that goal.
So, I'm going to come up with some extrinsic rewards to just help me stay pumped or excited. I actually got the idea from recorder karate, which I've discovered is a way that helps the students get super pumped about practicing their recorder. They practice songs and at a certain deadline, if they pass the song they get a little belt on their recorder that tells them and the rest of the world around them that they have passed that level!
I'm going to try a level system to get myself pumped for my goals. And, I'm hoping if I get to somehow share with some people around me what level I'm on, it will get me even more excited to share when I've passed on to the next level.
So, here's what I've come up with so far…
The Levels of Weightloss:
Level 1: Reached 190lbs
-You can buy yourself some jewelry (maybe that nice, pretty watch you've been thinking about)
Level II: Reached 180lbs
-Get yourself a pedicure; something bright and draws attention. You've earned that flashy attention!
Level III: Reached 175lbs
-Get a manicure and a pedicure
Level IV: Reached 170lbs
-Buy yourself a new dress or 2!
Level V: Reached 165lbs
-You've earned a new pair of shoes. Perhaps some good trail running shoes!
Level VI: Reached 160lbs
-Set up that vacation in Sedona for a night or 2!
Level VII: Reached 155lbs
-Get your hair treated and styled and buy 3 new dresses/outfits
Level VIII: Reached 150lbs
-You're doing awesome! Get a new swimsuit or 2, and take a spa day (massage)
Level IX Reached 149lbs
-You're super close! Start looking at trips. Buy a new swimsuit. Sign up for that Disney half marathon!
Level X: Reached 145lbs
-Book your trip to Hawaii!!!
So, what do you think? Leave a comment if you have ideas!
Giving Up:
Giving up is when you've stopped trying, accept failure, and then find yourself deciding to work on something else. This is what my a small percentage of my band students do. They pick an instrument, they are so excited and then after about a week or so, they start to question their ability. I slow down the pace for the class and they begin to feel empowered again. I push them to work harder after a couple of weeks and some of them start to freak out. Some will say they want to switch instruments because they think they didn't choose the right one and others will just quit. It always breaks my heart when they use the Q word and quit before they've even had a chance to experience their very first concert. I think, if they just would have stuck it out long enough to feel the reward of the small adrenaline rush before they start their four pieces they play for the audience and the rush of accomplishment and pride that comes after. If only!
Giving up is what I guess I have done this past year. I started P90X and then quit after day 60 because I felt like I wasn't getting the visual results I wanted. I quit trying to eat healthy because this little voice inside me told me it won't make that big of a difference and since I can't control some of the things that I know will make me happy (like finding the man of my dreams who will love me all the days) then the least I can do is grab myself a salted caramel Ben & Jerry's because I know that it gives me that temporary boost I can count on. Depression can be a real rational thinking process killer...
Giving up looks like this: I'm a 30 year old, 65in tall woman and weigh over 200lbs even though I ran a marathon just last week! Looks like I got the exercise part figured out (I do love that adrenaline rush before a race and at the finish line), but I gave up on the food stuff.
So how about I make a better plan…
Better Plan:
Now, this one is tough because I feel like I've tried so many things already! Tons, really. I truly believe that everyone is going to have something inside of them that works better for them then someone else. It really is different for everyone. I'm still finding my something. I'm going to try to use plans in the past that have worked for me, but come up with a plan that will hopefully help me stay focused on my goal and not feeling like I'm done before I'm done.
I've been doing lots of reading and studying for as long as I can remember learning how to read books that didn't have pictures in them. In my first read, I learned the importance of complex carbs, avoiding sugar, and avoiding starvation. In another, I learned the importance of lean protein and muscle growth. Later, I discovered the value of balancing carbs and protein together in portioned meals spread throughout. I later learned some contradicting ideas. Tried those ideas out and still don't buy into them so much. Intermittent fasting might be for some, but doesn't work well as a sustainable plan for me. I later learned the value of calorie counting. I lost the most when I implemented MyFitnessPal! And, of course, there is the Paleo plan. This seemed like a terrible idea when I first heard about it. But, I learned while reading "It Starts With Food"that paleo is actually pretty plant based. In fact, if I wanted to go paleo and eat meat sparingly, I could easily do that because there are plenty of plants that have protein and healthy fats that will help sustain me.
I've learned, over the years a little more about myself every time I've taken out these plans for a spin. It's like dating different men. You learn about them, but more importantly, you discover more about yourself what you are really looking for.
I don't know everything but I know I am looking for a plan that empowers me. I am looking for a diet that will not starve me, will feed all the inter working parts of my body but will also feed my soul. Whole30 was against "super stimulating foods" but the problem is, I'm already a food addict so if I don't get my replacement kicks somewhere, I might fall back on my salted caramel B&J's for comfort again. So, yes, its got to be tasty, wholesome, and its got to make me feel satisfied.
Ahh satisfaction…Satisfaction is what I really want. I want to be satisfied with my whole body, mind, and spirit working together as a balanced team.
So, here's the next plan. I am going to do Paleo eating for this 30th year of my life. Am I allowed to go off of it? Yes, but only for special events or days. Going on a cruise would be an example of that. Its a Friday night and my friends want to go out, is not one of those. Birthdays/weddings of very close friends or family, Holidays (not the whole month, just the week of), and Cultural Food night. I was thinking to allow myself one meal or treat per week to help me not feel stressed or restricted. What do you think? Is that too lenient?
Here is my weight goal. I want to weigh 145lbs by my birthday next year. Sooner would be better. So, I was thinking if I stay focused on the weight losing part (which has its own rewards over food) then I may not even want to go off the plan anyway.
Now, I have tried listing all of the reasons to lose weight and reaffirm to myself all of these wonderful things that will come if I accomplish these goals, but that just hasn't worked efficiently. I think part of it is my confidence gets swallowed up when I see that I'm not anywhere close to reaching that goal.
So, I'm going to come up with some extrinsic rewards to just help me stay pumped or excited. I actually got the idea from recorder karate, which I've discovered is a way that helps the students get super pumped about practicing their recorder. They practice songs and at a certain deadline, if they pass the song they get a little belt on their recorder that tells them and the rest of the world around them that they have passed that level!
I'm going to try a level system to get myself pumped for my goals. And, I'm hoping if I get to somehow share with some people around me what level I'm on, it will get me even more excited to share when I've passed on to the next level.
So, here's what I've come up with so far…
The Levels of Weightloss:
Level 1: Reached 190lbs
-You can buy yourself some jewelry (maybe that nice, pretty watch you've been thinking about)
Level II: Reached 180lbs
-Get yourself a pedicure; something bright and draws attention. You've earned that flashy attention!
Level III: Reached 175lbs
-Get a manicure and a pedicure
Level IV: Reached 170lbs
-Buy yourself a new dress or 2!
Level V: Reached 165lbs
-You've earned a new pair of shoes. Perhaps some good trail running shoes!
Level VI: Reached 160lbs
-Set up that vacation in Sedona for a night or 2!
Level VII: Reached 155lbs
-Get your hair treated and styled and buy 3 new dresses/outfits
Level VIII: Reached 150lbs
-You're doing awesome! Get a new swimsuit or 2, and take a spa day (massage)
Level IX Reached 149lbs
-You're super close! Start looking at trips. Buy a new swimsuit. Sign up for that Disney half marathon!
Level X: Reached 145lbs
-Book your trip to Hawaii!!!
So, what do you think? Leave a comment if you have ideas!
Thursday, July 16, 2015
Stay By The Tree
I read an article today in reference to the federal government passing gay marriage as legal marriage in all states. The article was written by a Protestant of the Christian faith. It explained so well why Christians are against gay marriage. It was written for those with genuine intent to understand, and it was an enlightening article that reference the Bible as its main source for belief and understanding of God's plan for us. It may be found by following this link: http://www.caintv.com/a-detailed-explanation-of-why
In the article, it talked of how He created men and women with lusts of the flesh, not so we would indulge in sin, but so we could learn to rely on Him and His atonement to overcome our sins. This is the only way to truly be happy -through mastering ourselves through Him.
In the article, it talked of how He created men and women with lusts of the flesh, not so we would indulge in sin, but so we could learn to rely on Him and His atonement to overcome our sins. This is the only way to truly be happy -through mastering ourselves through Him.
As I read, a tiny little light flickered on inside me that clicked, "This is THE way you will be able to overcome your own indulging sins." I remembered when Josh and I were talking and he told me that you cannot succeed to change your desires unless you pray to have those desires change. So, let Him change your heart.
I was running yesterday morning and thinking to myself how much I run and workout. I haven't really struggled too much to get a workout in once I make a plan to do it. Then I thought, "Just imagine how awesome and toned you would look if you were truly disciplined with your nutrition!" It always seems so clear and simple during a good run...
But then, the weakness of the flesh sets in with the hunger post workout.
Sometimes, my optimism towards eating right will last for weeks! But, there's always that one time you choose to indulge, which turns to another and another and then all of the sudden you forget what you ever felt so clearly and strongly about before.
How like that is to our spirituality! We will have a great moment when our spirituality is strong and then we falter because we gave into the weakness of the flesh and after a time of slipping, we become spiritually too tired to remember what we ever got so pumped up about!
Testimonies take work. Faith takes work. I felt inspired to read out of my gospel library while on this flight and thinking about my nutrition habits. My eyes fell upon Elder Kevin W. Pearson of the seventy's talk entitled, "Stay By The Tree"
Within it, he speaks of how even the General Authorities of the church have to pray for help to keep their faith strong and endure to the end. "Enduring to the end is not the same as 'hanging in there.'" He talks of Lehi's dream of the tree of life. There were those who partook of the fruit but then still fell away into temptation. That's how I feel about my eating habits. I have done healthy and balanced for a time and it feels wonderful! I have even convinced myself that I would never go back to eating bad to the point that I start feeling so bad from it. But, then I fall away from that plan and my vision of what I really want becomes murky again.
In this article, he talks about an action plan to help "endure to the end" and to not become "weakened" by "competing priorities." Here are the steps;
1. Don't Forget to Pray
"...Pray for strength to endure to the end...." This is not something I have ever even considered putting to the test. Perhaps, I should pray to my Heavenly Father for the strength to overcome my nutrition weakness, for the guidance to eat wisely, and for the courage and heart to do what is necessary for my health.
2. Come Unto Christ and Be Perfected in Him
"...We can fill our lives with accomplishment and well-doing, but in the end, if we do not enter into sacred covenants to follow Christ and faithfully keep them, we will have utterly and completely missed the mark."
My physical efforts will need to be in line with my spiritual efforts and vice versa. As I keep Him at the center of my life, I am suddenly not only taking care of my body for just me, but for Him.
3. Press Forward with Faith
"There is a path that leads to the tree of life, to Christ. It is straight and narrow, strict and exact. God's commandments are strict, but are not restrictive. They protect us from physical and spiritual danger and protect us from getting lost.
Obedience builds faith in Christ. Faith is a principal of action and power. Consistently following the Savior's example produces spiritual power and capacity. Without the strengthening and enabling power of the Atonement, its impossible to stay on the path and endure."
'"Press forward with steadfastness in Christ.'"
1. Don't Forget to Pray
"...Pray for strength to endure to the end...." This is not something I have ever even considered putting to the test. Perhaps, I should pray to my Heavenly Father for the strength to overcome my nutrition weakness, for the guidance to eat wisely, and for the courage and heart to do what is necessary for my health.
2. Come Unto Christ and Be Perfected in Him
"...We can fill our lives with accomplishment and well-doing, but in the end, if we do not enter into sacred covenants to follow Christ and faithfully keep them, we will have utterly and completely missed the mark."
My physical efforts will need to be in line with my spiritual efforts and vice versa. As I keep Him at the center of my life, I am suddenly not only taking care of my body for just me, but for Him.
3. Press Forward with Faith
"There is a path that leads to the tree of life, to Christ. It is straight and narrow, strict and exact. God's commandments are strict, but are not restrictive. They protect us from physical and spiritual danger and protect us from getting lost.
Obedience builds faith in Christ. Faith is a principal of action and power. Consistently following the Savior's example produces spiritual power and capacity. Without the strengthening and enabling power of the Atonement, its impossible to stay on the path and endure."
'"Press forward with steadfastness in Christ.'"
Even as I write this, I get a little nervous because of my own weaknesses -especially in this area. I feel weak and vulnerable because I have failed so many times to truly eat well consistently. However, I have experimented upon the words of Christ in other areas of my life and have found the Atonement to be the most amazing tool to help me overcome other weaknesses of mine that seemed, at the time, to be unconquerable.
Now, as I approach this differently, I must build my faith through obedience and exercising faith in Him to help me defeat my indulgent desires.
4. The Book of Mormon is Key to Spiritual Survival (Scriptures are key to spiritual survival)
"Life's journey is challenging. It's easy to be distracted, wander off the path, and get lost. Tribulation is an inevitable and indispensable part of our eternal progression. When adversity comes, don't let something you don't fully understand unravel everything you do know. Be patient, cling to truth; understanding will come. Trials are like great mists of darkness that can blind our eyes and harden our hearts. Unless we are 'continually holding fast' to the word of God and living it, we will be spiritually blinded rather than spiritually minded. Search the Book of Mormon and the words of the living prophets every day, every day, every day! It's the key to spiritual survival and avoiding deception. Without it, we are spiritually lost."
Every day must be a spiritually minded day. If I lose focus on "the tree" I will lose my way and wander off the path. I can be deceived and forget what I really want to find at the end of the path! It's tough to avoid those "competing priorities." I've heard that daily affirmations and reminders are important to helping people achieve their weight loss goals. I believe that to be true. I think having a daily dose of "health thoughts" as well as daily scripture study can prove to be helpful in staying on the path of righteous eating.
5. Don't Be Distracted and Deceived
"To heed is to give careful attention. Heeding those who do not believe in Christ will not help you find Him. Searching #spaciousbuilding for knowledge will not lead you to truth. It's not posted there. Only the Savior has 'the words of eternal life.' Everything else is just words. The large and spacious building symbolizes the 'vain imaginations and the pride' of the world -in other words, distraction and deception. It's filled with well-dressed people who seem to have everything. But they mock the Savior and those who follow Him. They are 'ever learning, and never able to come to the knowledge of the truth.' They may be politically correct, but they are spiritually lost."
This is both spiritually accurate and physically accurate. There are so many diets and fads out there it is very confusing and can distract me from my goals of true health. It can be so tempting to fall into the trap of leaning on the latest diets instead of following a balanced diet because I want to be like those people who "seem to have everything" figured out.
I also get easily distracted in social settings and forget my dietary goals or deceive myself in thinking it is okay to eat the way my friends or family do. Even though, they do not necessarily have the same "trials of the flesh" as I have.
6. Stay By the Tree
"Lehi's message is to stay by the tree. (Visit this link to read the full story of "The Tree of Life" from the Book of Mormon online: https://www.lds.org/scriptures/bofm/1-ne/8?lang=eng) We stay because we are converted unto the Lord. Alma taught, "Behold, he changed their hearts; yea, he awakened them out of a deep sleep, and they awoke unto God.' As we yield our hearts to God, the Holy Ghost changes our very natures, we become deeply converted unto the Lord, and we no longer seek the spacious building. If we stop doing those things that bring about deepening conversion, we regress spiritually. Apostasy is the reverse of conversion....
....If you lose the Spirit, you are lost. Don't be distracted and deceived.
True disciples continue to awaken unto God each day in meaningful personal prayer, earnest scripture study, personal obedience, and selfless service. Stay by the tree and stay awake....
Once we enter into covenants with God, there is no going back. Giving in, giving up, and giving out are not options. In the kingdom of God, there is a standard of excellence for exaltation. It requires valiant discipleship! There is no room for average or complacent disciples. Average is the enemy of excellence, and average commitment will prevent you from enduring to the end.
If you are struggling, confused, or spiritually lost, I urge you to do the one thing I know will get you back on track. Begin again to prayerfully study the Book of Mormon and life its teachings every day, every day, every day! I testify of the profound power in the Book of Mormon that will change your life and strengthen your resolve to follow Christ. The Holy Ghost will change your heart and help you see 'things as they are really are.' He will show you what you need to do next. This is Nephi's promise to you:
'And I said unto them...whoso would hearken unto the word of God, and would hold fast unto it, they would never perish; neither could the temptations and the fiery darts of the adversary overpower them unto blindness, to lead them away to destruction.
Wherefore, I ....did exhort them ...that they would give heed to the word of God and remember to keep his commandments always in all things.'
Brothers and sisters, enduring to the end is the great test of discipleship. Our daily discipleship will determine our eternal destiny. Awaken unto God, cling to truth, keep your sacred temple covenants, and stay by the tree!..."
As I read this article with a new purpose in mind; to overcome this specific weakness of mine. I felt a an awakened desire to lean on my Father in Heaven for His help to become better, not the spiritually but physically. After all, isn't the gift of having an imperfect body all for the practice of learning to lean on Him completely and to become "perfected in Him"?
To read the article in its entirety or hear this given in an address, follow this link: https://www.lds.org/general-conference/2015/04/stay-by-the-tree?lang=eng#6-12565_000_52pearson
Now, as I approach this differently, I must build my faith through obedience and exercising faith in Him to help me defeat my indulgent desires.
4. The Book of Mormon is Key to Spiritual Survival (Scriptures are key to spiritual survival)
"Life's journey is challenging. It's easy to be distracted, wander off the path, and get lost. Tribulation is an inevitable and indispensable part of our eternal progression. When adversity comes, don't let something you don't fully understand unravel everything you do know. Be patient, cling to truth; understanding will come. Trials are like great mists of darkness that can blind our eyes and harden our hearts. Unless we are 'continually holding fast' to the word of God and living it, we will be spiritually blinded rather than spiritually minded. Search the Book of Mormon and the words of the living prophets every day, every day, every day! It's the key to spiritual survival and avoiding deception. Without it, we are spiritually lost."
Every day must be a spiritually minded day. If I lose focus on "the tree" I will lose my way and wander off the path. I can be deceived and forget what I really want to find at the end of the path! It's tough to avoid those "competing priorities." I've heard that daily affirmations and reminders are important to helping people achieve their weight loss goals. I believe that to be true. I think having a daily dose of "health thoughts" as well as daily scripture study can prove to be helpful in staying on the path of righteous eating.
5. Don't Be Distracted and Deceived
"To heed is to give careful attention. Heeding those who do not believe in Christ will not help you find Him. Searching #spaciousbuilding for knowledge will not lead you to truth. It's not posted there. Only the Savior has 'the words of eternal life.' Everything else is just words. The large and spacious building symbolizes the 'vain imaginations and the pride' of the world -in other words, distraction and deception. It's filled with well-dressed people who seem to have everything. But they mock the Savior and those who follow Him. They are 'ever learning, and never able to come to the knowledge of the truth.' They may be politically correct, but they are spiritually lost."
This is both spiritually accurate and physically accurate. There are so many diets and fads out there it is very confusing and can distract me from my goals of true health. It can be so tempting to fall into the trap of leaning on the latest diets instead of following a balanced diet because I want to be like those people who "seem to have everything" figured out.
I also get easily distracted in social settings and forget my dietary goals or deceive myself in thinking it is okay to eat the way my friends or family do. Even though, they do not necessarily have the same "trials of the flesh" as I have.
6. Stay By the Tree
"Lehi's message is to stay by the tree. (Visit this link to read the full story of "The Tree of Life" from the Book of Mormon online: https://www.lds.org/scriptures/bofm/1-ne/8?lang=eng) We stay because we are converted unto the Lord. Alma taught, "Behold, he changed their hearts; yea, he awakened them out of a deep sleep, and they awoke unto God.' As we yield our hearts to God, the Holy Ghost changes our very natures, we become deeply converted unto the Lord, and we no longer seek the spacious building. If we stop doing those things that bring about deepening conversion, we regress spiritually. Apostasy is the reverse of conversion....
....If you lose the Spirit, you are lost. Don't be distracted and deceived.
True disciples continue to awaken unto God each day in meaningful personal prayer, earnest scripture study, personal obedience, and selfless service. Stay by the tree and stay awake....
Once we enter into covenants with God, there is no going back. Giving in, giving up, and giving out are not options. In the kingdom of God, there is a standard of excellence for exaltation. It requires valiant discipleship! There is no room for average or complacent disciples. Average is the enemy of excellence, and average commitment will prevent you from enduring to the end.
If you are struggling, confused, or spiritually lost, I urge you to do the one thing I know will get you back on track. Begin again to prayerfully study the Book of Mormon and life its teachings every day, every day, every day! I testify of the profound power in the Book of Mormon that will change your life and strengthen your resolve to follow Christ. The Holy Ghost will change your heart and help you see 'things as they are really are.' He will show you what you need to do next. This is Nephi's promise to you:
'And I said unto them...whoso would hearken unto the word of God, and would hold fast unto it, they would never perish; neither could the temptations and the fiery darts of the adversary overpower them unto blindness, to lead them away to destruction.
Wherefore, I ....did exhort them ...that they would give heed to the word of God and remember to keep his commandments always in all things.'
Brothers and sisters, enduring to the end is the great test of discipleship. Our daily discipleship will determine our eternal destiny. Awaken unto God, cling to truth, keep your sacred temple covenants, and stay by the tree!..."
As I read this article with a new purpose in mind; to overcome this specific weakness of mine. I felt a an awakened desire to lean on my Father in Heaven for His help to become better, not the spiritually but physically. After all, isn't the gift of having an imperfect body all for the practice of learning to lean on Him completely and to become "perfected in Him"?
To read the article in its entirety or hear this given in an address, follow this link: https://www.lds.org/general-conference/2015/04/stay-by-the-tree?lang=eng#6-12565_000_52pearson
Thursday, May 28, 2015
Gifts From the Heart for the Teacher
A note of appreciation 2013-2014 for helping out at the talent show.
This lanyard was given to me by the PTSA on teacher appreciation week last year.
Photos from the first concert of 2014-2015
Photos from the Christmas program:
8th grade student (Lesslie) gave this to me on teacher appreciation week.
A parent gave me a bouquet of roses with this card from a 7th grade student at our end of the year concert
A note of appreciation for helping out another teacher.
Note made by 3rd grade students after I taught them the teddy bear tango for the Christmas concert.
Jordyn (5th grade) gave me a journal with an "A" on it. Another student gave me a musical journal.
Sweet Rebekah (5th grade) puts together a box of handmade items after I announce that I will not be returning to Inca next year.
Lily (5th grade) brought me a bag of chocolate candies and this:
Sweet Jasmine gave me this and made me cry. There was a lot of crying in those last 2 weeks.
Beautiful Brisa gave me this. She stayed after school for hours helping me pack and clean out my room on the last day of school. We both truly struggled not to cry the whole time.
The day after I announced, sweet and sassy Melissa came in to my room with another and cooly asked if I needed any help. Then, she deflated and started to cry, "Miss Shupe! I don't want you to go!" It broke my heart.
She gave me this the following day:
The Evans family has been so dear to me. They have volunteered countless hours to fundraise and Mrs. Evans would play the piano. Their oldest son has been a real treat to work with in the band and is moving to 9th grade. The next in line is an 8th grade boy in the band. I was secretly hoping the family would follow me on my new journey.
They surprised me with this gift:
These past 4 years of my life have been an unbelievably amazing journey. I love my kids. I love the work they did to help create a great program at Inca. I have been so blessed to work with such incredible children.
(Painted by the art teacher as a Christmas gift Dec 2014)
Sunday, May 24, 2015
Meal Planning
I really hate to do this. But, what I hate even more, is eating some sorry excuse for a meal that doesn't even taste good because I'm hungry and I didn't plan ahead. It's a total waste of a "meal" if what I ate wasn't satisfying to my body or my mind and soul.
So, here is my attempt to create a plan this week. Tonight, I may cook some of this ahead of time.
Monday
BF −1 slice Bacon, 2 Eggs, 1 apple
Post Workout Snack (PWS) -Sweet Potato Fries and 1 slice bacon
L -Chicken Salad (1 Can chicken breast, handful of chopped pecans, 1/2 c grapes, 1 stalk celery, 2 green onions, homemade mayo, a little mustard)
D -Cauliflower Pizza http://www.popsugar.com/fitness/Low-Carb-Cauliflower-Crust-Pizza-Recipe-30739512 -but with pepperoni
Tuesday
BF -Banana, Peach, Pecan eggs, with coconut flakes and a glass of almond milk
PWS- Orgain Protein Shake (powder, ice, and almondmilk)
L -turkey breast sandwich (avocado, homemade whole wheat bread, onion, lettuce, tomato, pickles, olives)
D-thai chicken curry (coconut milk, sweet peppers, chicken, onion, carrots, sweet potato, snap peas, curry paste), maybe a little rice
Wednesday
BF- 1 slice bacon, 2 eggs, 1 apple
PWS- pb oats (1 egg, 1.5 tbs pb, 1/2c oatmeal, 1tbs honey)
L -Sweet Potato Pasta http://www.primalpal.net/recipe/Sweet-Potato-Pasta
D -steak fajitas (avocado, onions, peppers, steak, cheese, whole wheat tortilla)
Thursday
BF -Banana, Peach, Pecan Eggs with coconut flakes and a glass of almond milk
PWS-small tuna salad (1 can tuna, homemade mayo, green onion, pickles)
L -pork and baked potato
D -Spaghetti Squash (squash, marinara, beef, italian sausage, parmesan)
Friday
BF -homemade whole wheat peanut butter and banana sandwich
PWS −1 egg and 1 bacon, 1 cup grapes
L -tacos on whole wheat tortilla (beef, cilantro, onion, tomato, avocado, cheese, romaine lettuce)
D -Roasted Garlic Pasta Salad with chicken and whole wheat pasta https://www.pinterest.com/pin/559783428660345381/
If I get hungry in between meals, I'll plan to have some berries and fruit to snack on. Otherwise, I am hoping to stay pretty close to this plan. It all looks tasty enough to me! :)
So, here is my attempt to create a plan this week. Tonight, I may cook some of this ahead of time.
Monday
BF −1 slice Bacon, 2 Eggs, 1 apple
Post Workout Snack (PWS) -Sweet Potato Fries and 1 slice bacon
L -Chicken Salad (1 Can chicken breast, handful of chopped pecans, 1/2 c grapes, 1 stalk celery, 2 green onions, homemade mayo, a little mustard)
D -Cauliflower Pizza http://www.popsugar.com/fitness/Low-Carb-Cauliflower-Crust-Pizza-Recipe-30739512 -but with pepperoni
Tuesday
BF -Banana, Peach, Pecan eggs, with coconut flakes and a glass of almond milk
PWS- Orgain Protein Shake (powder, ice, and almondmilk)
L -turkey breast sandwich (avocado, homemade whole wheat bread, onion, lettuce, tomato, pickles, olives)
D-thai chicken curry (coconut milk, sweet peppers, chicken, onion, carrots, sweet potato, snap peas, curry paste), maybe a little rice
Wednesday
BF- 1 slice bacon, 2 eggs, 1 apple
PWS- pb oats (1 egg, 1.5 tbs pb, 1/2c oatmeal, 1tbs honey)
L -Sweet Potato Pasta http://www.primalpal.net/recipe/Sweet-Potato-Pasta
D -steak fajitas (avocado, onions, peppers, steak, cheese, whole wheat tortilla)
Thursday
BF -Banana, Peach, Pecan Eggs with coconut flakes and a glass of almond milk
PWS-small tuna salad (1 can tuna, homemade mayo, green onion, pickles)
L -pork and baked potato
D -Spaghetti Squash (squash, marinara, beef, italian sausage, parmesan)
Friday
BF -homemade whole wheat peanut butter and banana sandwich
PWS −1 egg and 1 bacon, 1 cup grapes
L -tacos on whole wheat tortilla (beef, cilantro, onion, tomato, avocado, cheese, romaine lettuce)
D -Roasted Garlic Pasta Salad with chicken and whole wheat pasta https://www.pinterest.com/pin/559783428660345381/
If I get hungry in between meals, I'll plan to have some berries and fruit to snack on. Otherwise, I am hoping to stay pretty close to this plan. It all looks tasty enough to me! :)
Monday, March 9, 2015
The Frozen Blerch
This morning I went on a hike with Angela. We found our own summit on the mountains behind her neighborhood. It was quite adventurous! While we were out there, we were sharing our trials with food and how we tend to get ourselves worked up before taking on a diet plan. We also will sabotage ourselves, even though we could be off to a really good start with our foods. We'll be feeling really good and then we'll be like, "Well, that was cool. Back to what I'm used to.."
What's that about? Also, what is the fear about really?
Why am I so against cutting out these foods. It's like that time my ex got so defensive about how he wanted to drink alcohol. I couldn't understand why or how it could be so incredibly important to him. It was clearly putting a wedge between us. But, here I am, letting my unhealthy attachment to some of these poisonous foods put a wedge between my relationship with myself and who I really want to be.
My friend Bryce had never seen Frozen before so we watched it tonight. While we were watching it, I was just realizing how much fear is the enemy. It can keep us frozen and unable to progress and it can keep us from truly being able to feel and experience joy, happiness, and love. So many times it's freezing and debilitating fear that keeps us from making actions at all.
My doctor said something to me today that really hit me hard. He was explaining my PCOS and obesity could have been attributed to my mother and even her mother. Their choices in overeating foods because they were not as nutritional could have caused hormonal imbalances in the fetus while they were pregnant. But, also their lack of health and wellness could have, over time made it much more challenging for each generation to be at a healthy weight. Then, as we were discussing the pros, cons, and risks to different approaches to helping me overcome potential PCOS and obesity he said, "The most important thing is that you do not continue to do nothing."
I left there, feeling more of a sense of urgency to change. If I don't do it just for me, I need to consider doing it for my future children that I may have some day.
I ran a mile as fast as I could this evening. It was so challenging, but the most challenging part was making the decision to do it and then sticking to the belief that I would follow through even when my friends were at my house late tonight. I declared it, and I did it. That was a blow against the frozen ice queen in me. I hope I can keep the ice pic coming until the unshakable warmth of certainty and trust sets in.
Sunday, March 1, 2015
oodF
This past week, I decided to conduct my own experiment of sensitivity towards food. I decided to not hold back for any reason. In other words, if I wanted to eat something, I didn't tell myself I couldn't and I didn't tell myself that I'd have to stop at any given point. All of the sweets I typically deny myself throughout the week were provided to me, liberally. I even went and got myself the ice cream that I love to eat while sitting down to watch an episode of Arrow.
At first, I didn't really have any cravings. I had just ran a ton throughout the weekend for Ragnar and I felt "clean" and clear. Like, my bloodstream had been purged of any of the stuff that I usually would crave. However, when I was offered a treat in a more social environment, I didn't say no. There, it all began. I also picked up 4 boxes of cereal and a free gallon of milk due to a deal going on at Fry's. I think I had already come to the conclusion that milk makes me crave more things and raises my blood sugar because I remember feeling like I was splurging and that it's a good thing this is my food experiment week.
I purchased Cap'N Crunch and 3 boxes of Life. Life, when coupled with almond milk doesn't make me too crazy, but then again. I wanted to observe everything that would happen if I ignored that.
This week has been crazy! All of the carbs I would eat never satisfied me. I would eat until my stomach became uncomfortably full. But, then I would still feel like my body wasn't satiated.
I have had headaches, mood swings, energy slums. My heart would feel uncomfortably elevated, even though I was just sitting or even lying around. My complexion is anything but smooth and glowing.
I have felt bloated, gassy, and irritable. I have even found that even though I allowed myself this week, that I still felt ashamed and less social. I almost didn't make it to a cultural food night that my friend had been planning for a month because I had a headache and felt too tired to want to be around friends.
I made myself go, anyway. I am glad I did. But, I made a note of it.
The psychological and physical side affects of high sugar, high carb foods are astounding! In just one week, I went from feeling like a champion to feeling like a miserable sloth!
I made myself get up everyday to run, but would sleep in so late that I would literally only have a few minutes of running time. Even with only few minutes, I remember on Thursday, feeling particularly tired and grateful I didn't have as much time to run.
This whole experience reminds me of how I felt as a child. I was morbidly obese at a young age and even though I was "cool" and had friends, I had an incredibly low self esteem. I would feel low in energy and depressed. I remember avoiding my friends sometimes -not because I didn't like them, but because I just wanted to sleep. I also was worried about being able to keep up with them. I was fully aware of how large and overweight I was and would be embarrassed to be around them sometimes.
My main meals as a child were cold cereal with milk, mac n cheese and a glass of milk, peanut butter & jelly sandwiches with a glass of milk, roman noodle soup, and sometimes pancakes that grandma made and lots and lots of mmmilk.
As I grew older, I remember forcing myself to eat veggies and fruits. I branched out to refried beans, eggs, tacos, and tortilla pizzas. I felt better and my body proportions slimmed significantly to where I was was in between overweight and obese.
My shape had gotten better with exercise. My arms and thighs have always been extremely large. My stomach fluctuates between flabby and round. When I run consistently, my shape remains the same but will maybe get a little smaller. The difference becomes most obvious around my face and neck. I have never been at a "healthy" weight for my age, sex, and height.
I have tried multiple things, however. I've done crazy diets like the cabbage soup diet, HCG, and the negative calorie diet. I've done more moderate ones like the Curve's diet and Jenny Craig. The one that seemed to last and make the most impact for the long term was calorie tracking on MyFitnessPal. I had reached an all time high on the scale during my student teaching and my thyroid reading was slightly off. I talked to my doctor and multiple tests were ran that were inconclusive for my energy slums. Then, it occurred to me to track my eating on MyFitnessPal. He also gave me a drug that decreased my appetite and increased my energy. It was supposed to be a temporary fix, but it gave me the jump start I needed to lose 30 lbs and keep it off. Calorie tracking seemed to be working. I ended up losing some more yo-yo 20lbs so now I can occasionally say that I've lost 50lbs using MyFitnessPal.
But, I have to say that it's discouraging how large my arms and thighs are. I also have another 50-60lbs I need to lose to be considered at a "healthy" weight.
I am an active person. As seen in previous posts, I enjoy running and working out. I've tried different muscle training programs as well (i.e. P90X, group personal training, personal training, body pump, etc.).
A friend of mine mentioned "It Start's With Food" to me. I've read it and it makes a lot of sense to me. However, I am both skeptical of any "food fad" and of my own ability to overcome my unhealthy psychological relationship with food.
So, I feel like for me to create a healthy relationship with food, I need to be cautiously observant and I need to remember what it is that makes me feel terrible and what it is that makes me feel great. I don't want to forget how horrible I have felt this week. I'm surprised I haven't caught the flu yet! I did catch a cold sore on my bottom lip, however. Ewe!
This week, I am going to follow the simple "S" rules. The "S Rules" means no snacks, no sweets, no seconds except for Saturdays, Sundays, and special occasions.
I plan to document everything through MyFitnessPal and I also am tweaking the snack rule to allow healthy snacks like fruits and veggies if I am feeling I need something.
I am honestly looking forward to this restriction! I am sick and tired of feeling sick and tired from this past week!
At first, I didn't really have any cravings. I had just ran a ton throughout the weekend for Ragnar and I felt "clean" and clear. Like, my bloodstream had been purged of any of the stuff that I usually would crave. However, when I was offered a treat in a more social environment, I didn't say no. There, it all began. I also picked up 4 boxes of cereal and a free gallon of milk due to a deal going on at Fry's. I think I had already come to the conclusion that milk makes me crave more things and raises my blood sugar because I remember feeling like I was splurging and that it's a good thing this is my food experiment week.
I purchased Cap'N Crunch and 3 boxes of Life. Life, when coupled with almond milk doesn't make me too crazy, but then again. I wanted to observe everything that would happen if I ignored that.
This week has been crazy! All of the carbs I would eat never satisfied me. I would eat until my stomach became uncomfortably full. But, then I would still feel like my body wasn't satiated.
I have had headaches, mood swings, energy slums. My heart would feel uncomfortably elevated, even though I was just sitting or even lying around. My complexion is anything but smooth and glowing.
I have felt bloated, gassy, and irritable. I have even found that even though I allowed myself this week, that I still felt ashamed and less social. I almost didn't make it to a cultural food night that my friend had been planning for a month because I had a headache and felt too tired to want to be around friends.
I made myself go, anyway. I am glad I did. But, I made a note of it.
The psychological and physical side affects of high sugar, high carb foods are astounding! In just one week, I went from feeling like a champion to feeling like a miserable sloth!
I made myself get up everyday to run, but would sleep in so late that I would literally only have a few minutes of running time. Even with only few minutes, I remember on Thursday, feeling particularly tired and grateful I didn't have as much time to run.
This whole experience reminds me of how I felt as a child. I was morbidly obese at a young age and even though I was "cool" and had friends, I had an incredibly low self esteem. I would feel low in energy and depressed. I remember avoiding my friends sometimes -not because I didn't like them, but because I just wanted to sleep. I also was worried about being able to keep up with them. I was fully aware of how large and overweight I was and would be embarrassed to be around them sometimes.
My main meals as a child were cold cereal with milk, mac n cheese and a glass of milk, peanut butter & jelly sandwiches with a glass of milk, roman noodle soup, and sometimes pancakes that grandma made and lots and lots of mmmilk.
As I grew older, I remember forcing myself to eat veggies and fruits. I branched out to refried beans, eggs, tacos, and tortilla pizzas. I felt better and my body proportions slimmed significantly to where I was was in between overweight and obese.
My shape had gotten better with exercise. My arms and thighs have always been extremely large. My stomach fluctuates between flabby and round. When I run consistently, my shape remains the same but will maybe get a little smaller. The difference becomes most obvious around my face and neck. I have never been at a "healthy" weight for my age, sex, and height.
I have tried multiple things, however. I've done crazy diets like the cabbage soup diet, HCG, and the negative calorie diet. I've done more moderate ones like the Curve's diet and Jenny Craig. The one that seemed to last and make the most impact for the long term was calorie tracking on MyFitnessPal. I had reached an all time high on the scale during my student teaching and my thyroid reading was slightly off. I talked to my doctor and multiple tests were ran that were inconclusive for my energy slums. Then, it occurred to me to track my eating on MyFitnessPal. He also gave me a drug that decreased my appetite and increased my energy. It was supposed to be a temporary fix, but it gave me the jump start I needed to lose 30 lbs and keep it off. Calorie tracking seemed to be working. I ended up losing some more yo-yo 20lbs so now I can occasionally say that I've lost 50lbs using MyFitnessPal.
But, I have to say that it's discouraging how large my arms and thighs are. I also have another 50-60lbs I need to lose to be considered at a "healthy" weight.
I am an active person. As seen in previous posts, I enjoy running and working out. I've tried different muscle training programs as well (i.e. P90X, group personal training, personal training, body pump, etc.).
A friend of mine mentioned "It Start's With Food" to me. I've read it and it makes a lot of sense to me. However, I am both skeptical of any "food fad" and of my own ability to overcome my unhealthy psychological relationship with food.
So, I feel like for me to create a healthy relationship with food, I need to be cautiously observant and I need to remember what it is that makes me feel terrible and what it is that makes me feel great. I don't want to forget how horrible I have felt this week. I'm surprised I haven't caught the flu yet! I did catch a cold sore on my bottom lip, however. Ewe!
This week, I am going to follow the simple "S" rules. The "S Rules" means no snacks, no sweets, no seconds except for Saturdays, Sundays, and special occasions.
I plan to document everything through MyFitnessPal and I also am tweaking the snack rule to allow healthy snacks like fruits and veggies if I am feeling I need something.
I am honestly looking forward to this restriction! I am sick and tired of feeling sick and tired from this past week!
I Run Because
The last couple of weeks, I have been running quite a bit to get me going towards my running event goals; one of which is to run marathon before I turn 30. I've always wished I was athletic and strong enough to do something like that and for the longest time I thought it was out of reach. I do not have a runner's physique. And, my brother -as well meaning as he is, likes to remind me of that whenever I begin a somewhat ambitious training plan to run some sort of event.
He reminds me that I am heavy and so what I am doing is extremely damaging to my joints; my heart rate is too high for too long; I will get injuries and set backs, and it's not the best way to lose weight.
And, while all of that might be true, I still love to run.
Here is a post that helps describe my feelings on the matter. I posted this right after completing a Ragnar with 3 of my really good friends and 9 other people that were previously strangers to me:
Feb 20-21, 2015
We did it!
People ask me why I run. They question my sanity when I tell them how far I ran and how far I plan to the next day.
I've been told "There are other ways to lose weight."
My response, "Yes, I know. But that's not why I do it."
I've been told, "You're crazy!"
"Yes. Imagine how crazy I am when I don't run!"
I run because every time I go out for a run, I come back as a better version of myself.
This weekend was an amazing run that has me feeling strong, weak, confident, humble, content, ambitious, grateful, assertive, relaxed, exhausted, motivated, and satisfied but wanting more.
This weekend I declared it, I did it. So did my teammates. The team 120 Sore Toes ran a terrific race of 206 miles over the span of about 36 hrs.
We did it together -some of us just meeting for the first time yesterday. We had a common goal and commitment and came together. It was simple and altogether amazing.
We cheered each other and supported each other. We cheered other teams and other teams cheered us.
I love the comradery shared among strangers at these events.
More then anything, I love the satisfaction of knowing I can overcome anything with love and prayer. The pain of a long leg, up a steep hill, with bursitis, and a stressed IT band may cause an arduous limp and a slower pace but getting over that hill and FINISHING what I set out to do is the most important achievement of all.
I conquered more than just a physical obstacle today. I was reminded pain is temporary when fought with endurance of faith, hope, charity, and loyalty to your goals. These attributes, coupled with the drive to persevere will take you to "the finish line" every time; God permitting.
I run because it helps me gain and remember that perspective in the more challenging and difficult parts of our lives.
And, let's face it, I really do love those shirts and medals we get at running events!
Here is a post that helps describe my feelings on the matter. I posted this right after completing a Ragnar with 3 of my really good friends and 9 other people that were previously strangers to me:
Feb 20-21, 2015
We did it!
People ask me why I run. They question my sanity when I tell them how far I ran and how far I plan to the next day.
I've been told "There are other ways to lose weight."
My response, "Yes, I know. But that's not why I do it."
I've been told, "You're crazy!"
"Yes. Imagine how crazy I am when I don't run!"
I run because every time I go out for a run, I come back as a better version of myself.
This weekend was an amazing run that has me feeling strong, weak, confident, humble, content, ambitious, grateful, assertive, relaxed, exhausted, motivated, and satisfied but wanting more.
This weekend I declared it, I did it. So did my teammates. The team 120 Sore Toes ran a terrific race of 206 miles over the span of about 36 hrs.
We did it together -some of us just meeting for the first time yesterday. We had a common goal and commitment and came together. It was simple and altogether amazing.
We cheered each other and supported each other. We cheered other teams and other teams cheered us.
I love the comradery shared among strangers at these events.
More then anything, I love the satisfaction of knowing I can overcome anything with love and prayer. The pain of a long leg, up a steep hill, with bursitis, and a stressed IT band may cause an arduous limp and a slower pace but getting over that hill and FINISHING what I set out to do is the most important achievement of all.
I conquered more than just a physical obstacle today. I was reminded pain is temporary when fought with endurance of faith, hope, charity, and loyalty to your goals. These attributes, coupled with the drive to persevere will take you to "the finish line" every time; God permitting.
I run because it helps me gain and remember that perspective in the more challenging and difficult parts of our lives.
And, let's face it, I really do love those shirts and medals we get at running events!
Friday, January 2, 2015
You Live And You Learn
….mostly about yourself. It's quite a process! Life is full of twists and turns that you never expected and you will never know what you're capable of overcoming if you don't have those experiences. Well ladies and gents! I am here to tell you that I have learned that I did not lose any inches in the first month of P90X despite all of the hard work I put into it. And, I've also recently discovered that maybe my hormone imbalance had something to do with it. Whatever it was, I was discouraged enough that I quit that avenue for reaching my goals. However, I am moving on and back to reaching my running goals!
I've recently just revised my 30 Before 30 Goals. Am I allowed to do that??
Of course! They're my goals and desires. Now that I've taken a little more time to reflect on things I've done and would like to do. Accomplishments desired and met. I can certainly update this. My birthday is 9 months and 20 days away. I better start cracking!
I've recently just revised my 30 Before 30 Goals. Am I allowed to do that??
Of course! They're my goals and desires. Now that I've taken a little more time to reflect on things I've done and would like to do. Accomplishments desired and met. I can certainly update this. My birthday is 9 months and 20 days away. I better start cracking!
1. Hike the Grand
Canyon
2.
Run a half marathon
3.
Run a Half Marathon in 2 hours
4.
Run a marathon
5.
Fly on an airplane
6.
Get a passport
7.
Travel outside the country
8.
Play a song on the guitar
9.
Play a drum cadence and video record
it
10.
Complete a trail Run
11.
Whiten Teeth
12.
Read the entire Old Testament
13.
Go through the Temple
14.
Visit 10 different temples
15.
Try a new backpacking adventure
16.
Do at least 5 gymnastic moves
17.
Learn a song on the piano and
sing along
18.
Write a song
19.
Reach a “healthy” weight
20.
Run a 5k in 30 min or less
21.
Start a public blog
22.
Build Credit
23.
Hike to the top of Humphrey’s
Peak
24.
Sew something
25.
Surf, snorkel, ski, or snowboard
26.
Begin working towards a masters
degree
27.
Have a spa day
28.
Run a Ragnar
29.
Hike camelback over and back
30.
Run at least 12 events in 12
months
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